Ah, that rings a bell. I was trying to embarrass the person carrying me, the HoP, by implying that as his PDA I had been around. My bad. Second, I was telling same said person, the HoP, to stab the person who was talking about spacing the PDA I was inhabiting. Again, I know it sounds sexual but I was really talking about killing her and wearing her skin like clothes. The whole covered in her fluids was intended to be implied as blood. I also don't know of a way to butcher something without getting dirty. I said I was leaning heavily into the horror tropes and provided the material that I was trying to evoke. Flayed Ones, as wearing the skin and offal of their victims. Cenobites and Hellraiser for the for the unknown and the gruesome acts as well as receiving pleasure plus some other parts. Here's a quote from Jane Wildgoose, a costume designer who made the apparel that the cenobites wear, on what Clive was looking for "My notes say that he wanted 1. areas of revealed flesh where some kind of torture has, or is occurring. 2. something associated with butchery involved' and then we have a very Clive turn of phrase, I've written down, 'repulsive glamour'. And the other notes that I made about what he wanted was that they should be 'magnificent super-butchers'." I was attempting to capture much of the same feelings that I have gotten from the movies. Another good example are the 'hell scenes' from Event Horizon. The brief flashes that are shown to the viewer of Hell and what awaited them on the other side of the warp. You can read about this by googling Event Horizon Hell scenes. This is all leaning real heavy into horror and the iconography that accompanies it and ties back to the fact that we are in space. From the Hellraiser wiki concerning cenobites "..they manifested as devoted followers of a supernatural hedonism with unorthodox definitions of pleasure; although vaguely described, this form of pleasure endorsed by the Cenobites involved two distinct forms: the expansion of sensation to an extremely painful point of sensory overload, and enduring excuciating pain through incessant tortures that transcend traditional laws of physics. They exhibited no discernible morality or immorality, merely unwavering devotion to their craft. .." I spoke of needing to be bathed in blood and here I was actually pulling some ideas from the comic "Johnny the Homicidal Maniac" and the wall in his house that gets soft if he doesn't keep it covered in blood (something tries to get through when the barrier softens/weakens) as well as more Khorne 40k ideas. The HoP was a reptilian and I kept saying that it felt good to be clothed in flesh instead of scales again harkening back to the Necron Flayed Ones. They are infected with a curse that maddens them and gives them a hunger for flesh and blood, they kill so they can feast. But there's a caveat here because they are machines and therefor unable to consume the flesh and blood that they crave so, guess what, they can never be satisfied. Sometimes the need is so great that even in battle they stop fighting to rub chunks of gore across their faces in a facsimile of eating. A PDA that wants to consume flesh and blood but unable to starting to sound familiar? Or how about being unable to commit the acts it so desires and instead influences others to commit the acts?